Sigh

I was out tonight at a joint hen and stag night (people out there note: don't do it). I haven't been out in a year(!) and I haven't seen some of the people I would have gone out with in that time. I looked around at them, all friends from uni, and I wondered what I had in common with them. And I wondered was it time to leave the friendships behind: not that we've fallen out but that we've all moved on. And then I thought but what do I move on to. I haven't made more friends in that time and I don't know how to make more friends. I don't know what I like to do any more or how to find out what I like to do. Part of me wants to go out like we used to go out and let loose and really enjoy myself, the other part of me can't be bothered changing my weekends and making that effort. I would love to have a partner, someone to share things with, someone who is always there, who makes me laugh, who is there for me when I fall and cry, when I'm tired and low, but how do you find someone like that if you don't go out, and if you do go out where do you go to find them?